I never liked the storm… I never liked the frightening feeling it gives me… but whenever ‘he’ would brush my mind… it would immediately give me the calmness that I needed inside… the once frightening feeling will soon to be replaced by anticipation and would awake the yearning feeling that was buried deep inside me…
The storm that was feared by many and especially by me, became a reason for a momentarily bliss for both me and ‘him’… wished that every night the heavens will cry an ocean of tears… for during these times ‘we’ could forget about everything… forget about what reality truly means…
I gasped as another thunder echoed from the heavens… clutched on my blanket tighter over my head… but when I heard the door of my room opened and closed after… the once fast pace of my heart slowly even… the tight clutch on my blanket slowly loosen… at last ‘he’ came…
A smile slowly curved on my lips when I felt his weight on the space behind me… my heart suddenly leaped when I felt his arm slowly wrapped along my waist… I gradually pulled the blanket off my face… and volts of electricity immediately shot through my body when I felt his hot breath tickled along the curve of my neck...
“Don’t be scared now… I’m here…”
His deep husky voice pierced through every fiber in my body… such music that made me deaf from the staggering rumbling of the storm…
I slowly closed my eyes…began to indulge myself to the heavenly warmth of his touch… I felt him slowly rolled me to face his side… his hand came to reach for my face… and God knows how I wanted to cry at that moment because of the over flowing bliss ‘his’ warmth were giving me… but if he actually knew… would it be too much to ask him to give ‘us’ forever for us not to endure this excruciating moment of just a temporary happiness..? It probably is… for right at the beginning, he had clearly set a border that ‘we’ both mercilessly defied…
He caressed my face with such gentleness…at first I thought the storm was my weakness… but I was wrong… for just by ‘his’ touch… every part of my body would go limp out of frailty…
“Open your eyes baby girl… my Dara…”
I bit my lower lip… pondering if I should comply with his words or not… but when he did another stroke on my cheek… that did it for me and made me to slowly open up my eyes…
With a couple of streaks of light coming from my lamp, I was able to see his handsome face that welcomed my sight… he held onto my shoulder and the next thing I knew… he was already hovering over me… his legs spreading mine as he settled himself between my thighs…
His arms were both on the either sides of my face…his elbows supporting him as he stared at me from above… just then my heart began beating violently… a feeling that I’ve been craving for that only him could make me feel…
I held my hands over my chest… grasping on the fabric of my shirt as I suppress myself from holding him… but in the end failed to do so as I lifted one of my hands and reached for the side of his face…
And a smile formed on his thin lips once he felt my touch… upon seeing it, added more to the fast beats of my heart… I watched as his eyes slowly closed when my hand began caressing his face, admiring the smoothness of it… and for a while, I held him… his face was only a couple of inches away from mine that I felt his hot breath against my lips when he heaved out a sigh…
After a while, he opened his eyes and looked at me with such affection in it… he reached for my hand that was on his face, locked it with his as he brushed it against his lips before he slowly brought it down beside my face…
Just then, the once affection that filled his eyes slowly vanished as I saw a forming pain in it… his brows furrowed and his forehead creased as he continuously looked down on me…
‘Please don’t look at me with such pained eyes…’
But before I could make myself to say those words to him… he had already leaned down to me… had already claimed my unprepared lips with his… I could only close my eyes… completely had drowned myself from the kiss we’re starting to share…
He squeezed my hand… pinned it against my bed as his other hand came to cup my chin and tilted my head to deepen our kiss… I lifted my free hand… wrap it along his neck, settled it at the back of his head and began playing with the locks of his honey blonde hair…
My eyes began to warm… only to realize that I’m starting to cry… why does it need to be right yet so wrong at the same time…?
I gladly part my lips when I felt him lick the space between it… soon, I felt his soft warm tongue against mine… playfully twisting itself with mine... wandered inside the depth of my mouth with ease… I heard myself let out a moan despite the loudness of the rain and tears had finally escaped the sides of my eyes with me unable to stop it from flowing even more…
The kiss grew rougher and my moans would occasionally escape the spaces between our lips… my head would involuntarily be lifted off my pillow to reach him more… while he would push me back down with now his hands pinning down both of my hands, entirely trapping me to something I myself don’t even want to escape…
He pulled out from the kiss first… leaving our lips both swollen… breaths hitched… leaving me begging for more…
I opened my eyes… still only to be welcomed by a pained expression in his face… his hands came to wipe off the trails of my tears… if only I could take away that pain inside him… but it would also mean for me to let this feeling for him falter…
“Saranghae…”
He would always say that to me to cover up for that pain… I could still remember the first night he told me that word… same rainy night… same circumstance as we have right now… would it be bad to faintly wish that he should have not told it to me…? I was able to suppress the same feeling that he had put to words at first… I was good in hiding it… not until he broke it out for me… not until he showed me that I could openly love him as well… but looking at us now… probably it was – for a slight reason of not seeing him in this pain- better if he shouldn’t let me hear that word coming from him…
My head fell back as his kisses trailed along my jaw… both of my hands were still under his restraints that I could only whimper from the pleasure that’s starting to creep inside me… just this night… I would think everything is all right…
I heard him constantly mumble my name with every touch of his lips against my skin… my eyes fluttered close as his voice continuously soothed my soul… and I was a bit grateful for the storm, swallowing those sensual sounds coming from my shameless voice…
Another moan escaped my lips when I felt him suck a portion of my flesh on the side of my neck…the softness of his tongue tickled my skin… making me to squeeze on his hands tighter and bury my head deeper on my pillow…
He pulled back... leaving that part throbbing… I could feel its warmth despite the cold air brushing along it… only to realize that he had given me another mark…
His hands left mine as he continuously scattered kisses along my neck… found their place on the buttons of my shirt, I could only clutch tightly on the sheets of my bed, biting my lower lip as this blatant anticipation continuously build up on me…
As my skin was freed from the first button… his lips came even before the cold air could touch it… kissing every skin that my soon to be opened shirt would expose… making my body shudder from the deepening ecstasy inside me…
Soon, my upper body was all exposed in his eyes… I could only look to the side biting my finger as my breathing continued with its heavy pace… watched as the water poured down against the glass of my window, I waited for his next moves…
He had pushed himself up… sat on his knees between my thighs, placing both of my legs on either sides of his waist… I could feel his eyes watching me, adding up more to the wild beatings of my heart… one of his hands came to my face... caressing it as his voice, casted me once again in its spell drew me to look at him…
“You’re so beautiful Dara-ah…”
He whispered… and once again, my heart fluttered in bliss with his words… his other hand began to wander along my body… tracing the curve of my waist with his warm touch… I moaned… closed my eyes shut and gripped tightly on the sheets with my other hand while I muffled my moans with the back of the other…
My back involuntarily arched off the bed… and when I felt his hot breath brushed along the tip of my nipple… I immediately opened my eyes and looked down… welcomed by the top of his head as his lips were only an inch away from the now stiff bud of my breast…
I breathed out a long moan… my hand immediately came to hold on to his hair as he took my breast inside his warm mouth… his soft tongue tickled my hardened nipple… twirling around the hard flesh, he played with it, grazing his teeth along it while he took hold of my other breast and began kneading it gently with his other hand…
I threw my head side by side… my toes curled against the sheets as I continuously whimpered in pleasure… I shrieked a bit when I felt him bit my nipple while he pinched the other between his long fingers… I slid my arm behind me, propping myself with my elbows to sit up while my other hand was still on the back of his head… tightly clutching on his hair as he began to grew rough on abusing my breast in his mouth…
He then pushed me down with his other hand… held on to my shoulder to keep me down as he continued to exploit my peaks like a hungry infant milking his mother empty… for a while I was moaning in both pain and pleasure as he suck me with all might… I could only pull on his hair… at least making him feel the same pain he’s giving me…
He left my breast wet… nipples were taut… and slightly bruised… went on to the valley between my breast, he again, showered it with his wet kisses… trailed down to my navel… blew hot breath along it, that I could only arch my back once again in response…
His hands came to the bands of my pajama pants… when I was about to see what he’s about to do next, he had claimed my lips with his once again… pushed me back down on my bed as he lifted my lower body and swiftly slid off my pants together with my underwear from my other leg… leaving it dangling on the other as we once again indulged ourselves to another tongue battle…
I mumbled his name once we broke out from our kiss…I trembled on his embrace when I felt the cold air brushed along the wetness of my core… he smiled above me and gave my lips once last peck before he pushed himself down…
My half lidded eyes followed him as I watched him slid down my body… his hands parted my legs further… I tried to reach him with my hand… stop him from doing what I was thinking he’s about to do… he caught my hand, held and placed it against my inner thigh as he kept my legs spread open, exposing my dampness in his eyes…
My cheeks burned from shame… for despite the trifle light inside my room, I knew that he could clearly see how my anticipation to feel him pooled in wetness between my legs…
His name came out again with a moan when I felt his other hand palmed my core… my free hand came to cover my mouth as I threw my head back and slumped down on the bed… lifting my hips to feel his hand more…
He started to palm me… his warm hand stimulated my now aching core as he began caressing me… I could hear the slippery sounds coming between my legs… my throat strained from moaning out loud… battling with the sounds of thunder, I groaned in a pleasurable agony…
And when I felt his finger entered me, my back arched off the bed once again… hips bucked wildly as he began fingering me with his long digit…
He continuously held my hand against my inner thigh… I could only squeeze on it as he pleasured me with his finger… adding another one; they curled inside me, scraping my walls with his nails, reaching deeper into my core, I twisted in euphoria…beads of sweat formed on my forehead… my chest heavily heaved up and down and it didn’t take me a while to feel the forming pressure inside my abdomen…I shook my head side by side… tried to open my eyes to see him… my other hand tried to reach for his arm to make him stop only for him to make his fingers work in me faster and deeper…
And soon, a loud cry escaped my throat as once again, my back arched off the bed… my body started to shudder until the tips of my fingers… and I felt a flood of warm juice leaked from inside my core… immediately drenching his fingers that were still buried inside the pits of my womanhood…
I collapsed on my bed… panting… body was steaming from the hotness of my orgasm… I tiredly opened my eyes… darted my gaze towards him… I moaned when I felt him pulled out his fingers… watched him as he licked it and soon it disappeared inside his mouth…
He smiled at me… caressed the sides of my thighs making my trembling body calm… but even before I could completely calm, his hands came between my legs once again… parting it as he slowly leaned down and rested his head between my thighs…
I called him… immediately sat myself as my fingers found themselves tangled in his hair…
“Don’t…”
I mumbled… only to feel him lick my womanhood… I squirmed… tried to push his head away from my dripping core and close my legs together but he caught my leg… pulled it, causing me to crash down again on the bed…
I tried to roll my body… but he held my hips tight… pulling both of my legs to rest over his shoulder… he began lapping on my womanhood… my mind was becoming hazy from too much ecstasy… I balled my fist on the sheets… bit my lower lip to suppress my cries…
His soft tongue played on my already swollen clit… my hips bucked up when I felt him insert his tongue inside my core… poking my walls with his soft flesh… sucking my dripping juices with his warm mouth… that was pure heaven… I could feel my eyes roll back…I continued moaning out his name, chanting it like a prayer over and over again… and as if his tongue wasn’t enough to bring me to the edge of my sanity… his hand came to finger f*ck me together with his tongue… pinching my swollen bud between his fingers… I writhed under him… and soon, I was down with my second orgasm…
Energy was soon to leave my body… yet I wanted more… I was panting so hard… my body was trembling even more… and my core was wetter than before…
He licked me clean… felt him suck on a part of my inner thigh before he completely pulled out between my legs…
As I opened my eyes, I saw him looking at me… I extended my arms towards him… he gently held my hand as slowly crawled towards me…
“Hold me Jiyong-ah… please hold me…”
I saw a slight smile on curved on his lips as he leaned down to me and collected me in his arms… I closed my eyes… tears once again filled inside it when I felt his warmth immediately enveloped my body…
He kissed the side of my head as he soothed me with loving words that definitely warmed my heart… for a while I was drown in the bliss of his embrace… listening to him as he told me over and over again how much he loves me…
“I need you…”
I whispered, tears started to stream down at the sides of my eyes… and soon enough… I felt him part my legs once again… lifted his lower half as one of his arms untangled from its hug and reached for his own pajama pants…
I kept my arms around him… holding him tight as I rested my head over his shoulder…I gasped when the throbbing flesh between his legs accidentally brushed on my core when he finally freed himself from his pants…
He pushed himself up… using his elbow as his leverage, he looked down on me… he kissed my cheek and told me to open up my eyes… I did… and saw his handsome face smiling down at me… staring directly in my eyes…
I caressed his face between my hands… pulled myself up a bit to place a peck on his lips… watched him as he looked down between us… his other hand caressed my womanhood causing me to let out another moan… and the next thing I felt was the tip of his member struggling to get inside me…
He immediately looked up to me… his other hand was on top of my head… framing it… I held onto his sides as he pushed himself up, burying himself inside me… his expression contorted… lips parted as he let out a groan… joining me with my cries until he fully inserted himself inside me…
For a while we stayed like that… letting me to adjust on his length… he ducked down and hugged me once again… I wrapped my legs around his waist with my arms hooking under his arms, grasping onto his shoulders…
Our slicked bodies rubbed against each other… my nipples grazed along his still clothed torso while I could hear how our lower parts slapped and slid against each other… such erotic sounds to add up to the hotness inside my body…
Sin… such sin yet so heavenly… putting us in a point of no return… screaming each others name… rocking our bodies shamelessly to a rough rhythm… until we could finally reach what heaven truly is…
His member throbbed… his pace grew faster and deeper… he pushed himself up with both of his hands against the bed on both sides of my face…
His sweat streamed from his forehead down to his chin… his shirt was all drenched… our labored moans mixed with each other and filled my room… I grasped on his arms as he continuously rammed his member inside me… my half lidded eyes watched his and soon, I felt the familiar tightening inside my stomach…
After a couple of thrusts, he threw his head back and I heard him moaned out my name… his warm seeds shot right through my womb, filling me up to the brim… I shut my eyes tight from the feeling and it didn’t take a second for me to reach my own edge… my legs wrapped around him tightly… felt my lower body been lifted up from the bed as he continued to empty himself inside me…
He collapsed on top of me… his hips would continuously release some small pumps, driving himself out from his orgasm while my body would continuously shake from the tremors of my release… I hugged him tight… caressing his back to make him calm…
He kissed me again on the side of my face…I could only moan and shut my eyes tight from too much weariness… for a while I let him on top of me… even though I’m near to be suffocated by his weight… I just want to feel more of him…
He held my arms and pulled it off of him… gently put it down on my sides as he caressed my face… I felt him brush off some of my hair and then planted a kiss on my forehead… another moan escaped my lips when I felt him pulled himself out of me… soon the cold air immediately brushed my wetness making me to shudder a bit…
I was too tired to open my eyes… but I was aware all the time that he cleaned me and put my clothes back… I rolled to my side when I felt him laid down beside me… pulling the blanket to cover our tired bodies…
The rain continuously poured down… the only witness of our sinful act… the thunder continuously roared… as if it was angrier than before… maybe we had enraged God too much this time… and soon, reality slowly sunk inside me…
He wrapped his arms around me, keeping me close… I opened my eyes and looked up to him… my lips quiver and vision slowly blurred as my tears filled my eyes once again… this time, it’s not because of any bliss… but instead the painful reality that was clearly spread in front of me…
He kissed my eyes…telling that everything is all right… despite the reality that it was far from being all right… he hugged me so tight and I wished that I would just break in his arms… for loving him is much more painful than having my bones be broken into pieces…
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Morning came and I found myself alone in my bed once again… looking at the empty space beside me… I could only let out a sigh before my gaze darted to my window, finding a bright morning… I tried to form out a smile…
I went downstairs… and the man I was expecting to be lying beside me was seated on the far end of the dining table… looking at me with still those love-filled eyes… I could only let out a smile… couldn’t hug and kiss him the way I did last night…
“Dara-ah… take your breakfast now… you two will be late now…”
Our mother’s voice broke me out from my trance… I saw Jiyong looked away and all I could do was to sit across him on the table in silence… mom soon joined us in the table followed by dad who was holding onto a newspaper… if only I could think that nothing’s wrong in the picture... but I myself know it clearly that something’s deeply wrong with it… for I shouldn’t be loving the man in front of me… I am not supposed to fall in-love with my own brother.
